Wholehearted

I stumbled across this talk through a link from a link from a blogger I’ve followed for a number of years. If I could pick up and be accepted to do further study at any graduate school anywhere, this might just be who I would want to work with.

https://ted.com/talks/view/id/1042

 

Sunny Day Quiet Evening

Today has been a satisfying day.

My major case presentation has arrived back with minimal revisions necessary. I was a little bit worried as the prof who is my reviewer was one who was a fairly hard marker during the coursework. But there are only about 4 paragraphs that he wants reworked. Not too bad.

I bused out to a friend’s house – 45 min – to borrow a bicycle in anticipation of a friend visiting for the weekend. The cycle home along the Galloping Goose Trail was lovely, if hot, and there were some incredible views of the straight of Juan de Fuca and the Olympic mountains.

I threw together dinner, but it was tasty and satisfying. Really, anything that includes broccoli is a win in my book.

Pulled the ukulele out and played for the first time in awhile. I might just have enough competence regained to bring it with me on SALTS in 3 weeks time. I have decided that a ukulele is a better size than a guitar for travelling and for bringing on a tall ship. I can always borrow a guitar on board because there are usually a few kicking around.

I’m wearing my newest slippers. I made them out of a sweater that I accidentally shrunk a little. It was a favourite sweater that I bought in Japan and was super cozy and comfortable. However, in washing it, it shrunk a little – too much to be wearable. I couldn’t bear to part with it, so I felted it and have now cut and sewn it into slippers. Sweater slippers. Possibly the most comfortable thing ever.

Another Chapter

I should be writing my final paper right now. (I tell my counselling clients not to “should” themselves. Easier said than done.) 

The last week or so has seen me wrapping up sessions with the handful of clients that remain. By this time next week, I will have no practicum clients left and will have begun to work with people post-student life (No, I don’t have a job, I’m just volunteering to get my hours up).

My final paper, a major case presentation, is due in 2-3 weeks; I am just over halfway through.

And so, I begin to think about the next chapter.

In reality, I have been thinking about it for a few months. I go through cycles of panic and frenzied job searching to a healthier, more laid-back confidence in God’s provision. Because, really, I have no reason to panic… I’m not broke and needing to repay thousands of dollars in student loans (Though making enough money to cover living expenses certainly would be nice). I do have the ability to wait for something right to appear. Ability… well, some ability. How long I can wait is more a matter of my own sanity.

But then I remember: Why panic? Over and over in my life, I have been constantly amazed at the unseen hand of God at work. Yes, that is what I believe it is. Doors opened and blessings given undeserved. Opportunities appearing out of the blue. It blows the mind. It is a good reminder of why the Israelites were commanded to retell their history over and over again. By retelling those stories, we remember and can be reassured.

Perhaps my lesson right now is to sit and prepare to have my mind blown once again. I’m sure I am violating all kinds of laws of Biblical hermeneutics with quoting this passage out of context, but when thinking about being constantly amazed at what God is doing in (and in spite of), through, and for me, Habakkuk 1:5 comes to mind:

Look at the nations and watch—
and be utterly amazed.
For I am going to do something in your days
that you would not believe,
even if you were told.

Hmm. Instead of panic, freak out, and search out, it seems that my words for this moment should be watch, wait, and believe. I don’t always get it right, but I’m trying.

Snow Day

We kind of had a lot of snow yesterday (enough that Victoria and snow were Jian’s opening essay on Q this morning). I ended up walking to work where about six of our staff of over 20 made it in for staff meeting. Of fully booked schedules for the doctors, about six patients showed up. I went home early.

I don’t remember having seen that much snow all from the sky here for that long of a period of time (virtually all day from 5:30 onward) in a long while. With the snow, it has gotten cold, cold by Victoria in February standards. It is well below zero outside at the moment and the snow shows no sign of leaving any time soon.

Consequently, I stayed home today. So far, I have gone up and down between floors, made bread, caught up with the computer work I’ve been avoiding for a few days, did some knitting, and contemplated doing some research for my clients. I am still in my pjs. Did I mention it is half past noon? Snow days are a glorious thing and since we get so few of them on the South Island, I am milking it for all it is worth.

That isn’t to say that I am doing nothing! Last night I cycled across town to meet a friend for dinner. She is visiting from out of town on a work trip and it was easiest if I made my way to her. The roads looked alright (and the main roads were fine) so I headed out on my bicycle. It would have taken me easily three times as long on the bus.

This afternoon, I again have to cycle across town towards the highway to help out at an after school club at an elementary school. Then I’ll head downtown, again on the bike, to meet friends for our weekly coffee gathering. Then it is the opera this evening. So I’ll be out in the cold soon enough. Until then, I’m enjoying the warmth of tea and a fireplace from the comfort of my couch.

In Review and Looking Ahead

Without breaking my “don’t talk about work on the blog” rule, I feel that I can say that this week is going to be a busy one. I have more appointments this week than I’ve had any other so far and most of them are concentrated onto two days. It is good to be busy but I’m also hoping that it doesn’t drain me too much. I’m leaning a lot about making sure I get enough sleep!

It was a good weekend though. My roommate had a birthday on the weekend and her boyfriend and I managed to get a whole bunch of her friends over for a surprise board game night. I got home from work and had to wait until she left the house for a soccer game before I could make cupcakes in order to have them ready 2 hours later! I now know that putting them in the freezer for about 10 minutes after baking cools them sufficiently to ice. Nut/Dairy-free (as they need to be in our house) Chocolate cupcakes with caramel icing!

(iPhone photo with a new app I’m playing with)

November. School and San Fran.

And then it was November. I’m not sure where October went. Nor September for that matter.

One week left in my coursework and I am frantically researching and writing my final paper for the course. It isn’t supposed to be long but there is a lot of research in the area and it is harder to write something when there is a lot already written on the topic. I feel like I have to read absolutely everything before writing the paper which has meant at least 3 days of reading and note-taking so far. All of that for a ten page paper seems excessive.

Because I am doing all of that, I haven’t spent nearly as much time planning the upcoming trip to San Francisco as I would like. I’m relying on my sister’s preparation and the guidebook given to me by my friend. A week from now, I’ll be basking in San Francisco-ness and enjoying the many shows there. I have no idea how/what to pack as it looks like it is 10 degrees warmer there than here but I need to be ready for rain and fog. Plus, I need to bring my computer as I’ll have to do some school work from there. At least I can travel and do school all at once.

Back to School

This week hit me like a sack of something heavy. A dead body perhaps. After an intense summer of school, I relished and throughly enjoyed my three weeks off; I didn’t even pick up my text book until the day before classes started (which was yesterday). That must be why it is so hard to get going on school right now. I only have two classes left before my practicum (huzzah!) but I’m having a tough time motivating myself to actually get going on them. I even watched television yesterday to procrastinate. That is how you know things are getting desperate around here.

At Once

Ever noticed how everything always happens ALL AT ONCE? Just when you think you are doing well, something else happens to throw things for a loop and make you realize that perhaps you could fit just one more thing in.

Take right now, for example. I am working my usual 20+ hours per week and doing the school thing, the same schedule I have been on for nearly a year now. Except (as I am sure I have mentioned, because I like to mention it and make people feel sorry for me) right now I am doing double the school work. In other words, full time school times two. Yeah.

Add that to Victoria finally experiencing summer and I actually want to go outside and enjoy myself! What is that, you say, a life? No, I haven’t really got one, though I am trying. Plus, I started up hot yoga about five weeks ago and have been doing that 2-4 times per week. I don’t really know how I fit in hot yoga, as the classes are 90 minutes long, but apparently it has become important enough to me that I am willing to get up really early do take part. Like 5:30am early.

Then, if that wasn’t enough, something else came up out of the blue a couple of weeks ago. Right now, it does not require any time commitment, but it has been requiring a great deal of mental and emotional energy. I can’t really say any more than that right now, but rest assured if it comes to something, I will pass that along. Until then, I would appreciate your prayers for my discernment. Oh – and big hugs, free meals (I sometimes forget to eat), and sympathy for all the hard work I am doing…!

So…

Yeah… sorry about that.

I am still here and I have been thinking about things, just not writing here. I started two courses this week – two. The usual for the program is one at a time but I’m doing two right now so that I don’t have to worry about one when I’m in Myanmar this fall. The downside is that one of the courses I am in right now is actually one of the most intense of the entire program. I usually spend the first week of a new course trying to find my footing in it. This time, I am doing it for two. Top that off with the first nice weather of the summer and me starting up at yoga, and life has been a little crazy lately.

On the plus side, I got my marks back from the last course I did, the one I did from Portland and France and various points of travel in between. It was the highest mark of the program to date. Apparently I should go to Portland or France more often.

Today, until I was chastised in the comments of my own blog, I have mostly been working on school work, interspersed with walks and naps. Mostly school work though. One course has an insane [my opinion] number of assignments, so I have started on one for the other course due in three weeks. Logical, no? It is actually going to be easier and is something I had already begun to work on for something else, so I though I would get it out of the way while I could.

Now that I have appeased the lone voice of dissent, I will resume my scheduled evening activities: break for food, finish paper, watch DVD counselling session for course, journal responses to DVD for paper, put away laundry, sleep. What a glamorous life I lead.